Despite my constant nagging to drive properly, the boyfriend got into an accident.

*shakes head*

When he called me to tell me, I screamed at him (menstrual day, must be forgiven) that my constant reminders are being wasted when he got into that accident. He promptly said:

"I already had enough from my mother already"

So... how does one actually go about without being a pain?

Turn the situation around to a comedy?:

"Ha Ha Ha.. bad luck for you. Buy number la sure strike lottery wan"

Sympathise thie situation?:

"Oh you poor thing, what can I do? Sure this time round u pokai dy"

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If there is such a word for it.

Today of all days, it was a super duper nice day to sleep in. But I was rudely woken up by my beloved daddy who took the opportunity of 'no transport' to force me to do marketing with him. There begins a series of....

"This vege is not good. Cannot keep" or
"This fish may be cheap but taste the same as the expensive one" or
"Vege cannot be kept for more than x no of days" or
"Look at the content of the things you buy, they may contain more sugar than you actually need" or
"This vitamins is good for you. You should take it daily"


I wonder will this continue until to the day I start moving out of the house. I'm pretty sure soon he will start to wake me and give me cooking lessons.

Anyone knows how to get advance MC?

*evil grinz*

Waffles didnt happen. Because there were 3 greedy girls who thought they could eat their brains out in Chillies AND Waffle World.

So Chillies we went. Didn't even finish our food. I was the most sensible one who ordered salad and stole from the rest. SL so smart, gave me half of her Chicken Crispers to look as though she has eaten all her food. E, as usual so greedy and doesnt want to share, ordered...(I forgot what was hers.. haha) and ended up in pieces to look like she has eaten it.

I ate E's corn, and half of SL's Chicken Crispers, AND 90% of my Chicken Caeser Salad. *burp*

And they complain that I am pregnant.

Right.

So waffles didnt exactly happen. It will be postponed to further notice, where we can gather more greedy girls who think that they can eat alot but cannot (C.. by the way, deserves an exemption, because noone dares to challenge the amount she eats)

There are days where you just feel useless, stupid and lonely.

This is one such day.

*sigh*

I cant wait for waffles night. I need comfort food.

Ice cream got cure

Remember, you heard it first here.

Guys chase, girls wait. Guys bait, girls play hard to get. The best time in a relationship is the start of a relationship. Those dizzy looks in each others eyes, the constant 'iluvus' and 'imizzus', the 'look' of happiness, etc.

As I have heard, the spark for each other will definetely fade, but never the love. That is why the need to focus on other objectives in life to keep the relationship going. Children, career objectives, etc. I guess one thing will never change, that is both parties are to work towards the same objectives and goal.

As I am moving forward to a potential co-habitation situation in the near future, one could not resist the feeling of excitement and also a little bit of worry. I have never known the meaning of living without the parents, nor do I know the meaning of the word 'independant'. The hunt of property to rent in a foreign land overwhelms me. I never knew it could be this hard, and I havent even settled the minor, itty bitty details such as phone lines, internet connection (a must.. otherwise I will just die), division of expenses, transport arrangements, household expenses, etc. etc. Lucky the boyfriend stepped in and told me that he has a personal contact (that could be trusted of course) that could help us find a place (and.. sl, we are not going to move in May 2006 especially for you). The rest of the things would be settled once we get there.

This is our objective. To try to stay together independantly and work in a foreign country(although.. I will be depending on him... so I will be semi-dependant.. heh).

I will be starting work on 19 June 2006, and he, a week earlier. And within that idle week, I will be settling all the minor household stuff and be a housewife for a week. Plus, considering the fact that I want him to go in first so he can tell me what to expect *evil grin* Talk about sacrificing him to the wolves.

It is quite fast isnt it?

I thought a relationship would be like.. dating for a few years before it starts to get really serious. I sincerely would have doubts of whose relationships went to 'serious mode' too fast. Take for example, my friend broke up with the boyfriend of 2 years, got together with another guy and less than a year later they got married. Express relationship. Of course the fact that the other guy was 30++ years old made them tie the knot ASAP. Also for the fact that she knew the guy long before, it is just that they didnt hook up. Back then, I really feared for my friend. I could see that she is happy, but logically speaking, that was not supposed to happen... married within a year of dating? I asked... how would you know him well enough? She said "you will know when it is right".

Enter the present:
Me, dating 2 + months, already discussing the prospects of staying together. I have become what I previously feared.

I guess I now know what my friend means by "you will know it is right". I thought that would only happen gradually through the process of dating and after lots of getting used to each other. I thought after you could get used to each other then only you will know when it is right.

I know everyone who cares about me fears for the worst. Fear that I would be alone and miserable in a foreign land. Fear that if things are going too fast, it would just crash and burn. Yes. I do fear the same things. What goes up must come down.

Right now, I know this is 'right'.

Who knows? Only time will tell whether this is right. Meanwhile, sit back and enjoy the ride.

I'm 20-s0mething young (at a very good marriagable age I must say). Ever since I started working my dad has been giving me 'The Talk'. 'The Talk', in summary, consists of ME getting Married early, having Children early, and the importance of having a good husband (comparative to those showing in Hong Kong drama serials - good ones of course).

Its an indirect way of telling me: stop leeching off them and give them grandchildren.

As time goes by, I'm sure I have heard tonnes and tonnes of excuses of the importance of getting married. My dad is sure very creative of dropping hints. Classic example is when we are watching some Hong Kong drama serials, he would comment on how bad/good the guy is and then infuse the examples on my love life. Or when I am in the car (driving him around, when I really cannot escape) he will bring up how is it that girls should marry young because they should give birth young, because ... because... How nice.

And then there are more.

Just yesterday I was arguing with my mom about something to do with my brother (complicated dont ask...). All I did was disagree on certain things that the way my brother was handling, and as usual, my mom will side my brother. All this while, my dad was listening quietly.

Very innocent right?

Not.

Later, he commented that I was very hot-headed, stubborn and very strong in my opinions (when it comes to my brothers and what I feel, I think I am...). Of course, I thought he was going to lecture me on the importance of giving and take, he is your brother.. understand abit.. yadda yadda...

No.

Instead this came out: "Headstrong and aggressive woman bear more baby boys. Next time you will have more baby boys"

(-.-)" xian....

"The executive lounge for connoisseurs of fine cigars while sitting over a
brandy or a wine and engaging in social or business conversations. Have a Cohiba
Lanceros or a spicy Santa Damiana Torbusto as soulful or jazzy tunes fill the
air. If you like, head to the bar’s humidor and select from their range of
cigars. It is a delightful nook to hide away with a few friends or just have a
good read. Opens 12pm-2pm for lunch and throughout the evening till late."

Only that there are more guys than girls

One Magnum Black Lable later and the bride to be is dancing on the sofa and hugging everyone else she knows on the dance floor.

A drunken party that ended up with drunken sex.
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Not.

But I did catch your attention didnt I?. heh.

I was complaining to my dad just now.. My hair is such that.. in front scalp there is so little hair. But the back has alot of hair. His reply?

You have too much male hormones.

Right.

This conversation actually happened with my dad. The one in italics are the exact words that he used. The rest was conjured up to be as closely as possible to the actual conversation had:

One fine morning:

Dad: So.. you and xxxx gone case already?
Me: ...... uh.. huh....
Dad: Oh..... if like this good. Actually, I would congratulate you.
Me: .................................................
Dad: Yeah, with him your life will be suffering. Because he is like those happy go lucky those kind...
Me: ..................................................
Dad: At least yyyyyyy is better. With xxxx its so mismatched. You are like a princess with a frog. At least yyyyyyy is taller.
Me: HUH? Taller... *speechless*

For those who dont know me better. I dont go for looks, height, etc. So that came as a total shock. I think my parents has some height issues.

Who would have thought... me... of all people... to go overseas (more like over the straits) and work. I'm really glad that I found someone who, not only wants to be with me, but took the initiative to help me make my dreams come true. I know, Singapore is not his first choice, but to be with me, he is willing to make a move. With that, I really am lucky to have found him.

Being said that, I have so much preparations to make! I need to find a place to stay (any suggestions?). I need to figure out how to ship my stuff over. Most importantly I need to find it within me to adjust myself to the environment there.

I will miss all youuuu and my family here... but most importantly, once I settled down, you all are welcome to come up... I hope I will be a gracious host.... The Great Singapore Sale is coming up. *Hint*Hint*

But really, alot of planning has been undertaken to make this come true (it was either Shanghai or Singapore... Singapore's offer came first). Thats why I have been so busy and distracted lately. Thousand apologies to those who are affected. With the break-up, new relationship, drama, the planning, the dissapointment (The management decided that my whole group should not be promoted... inclusive of me), the stress, etc... one could just be abit snappy/busy/and being MIA.

Now moving forward... After finalising my last day of work, I will be planning a holiday to Australia. I hope to reward myself before I start a new begining..

If I put in my resignation today, my effective last day will be 8 May 2006. Except that, I have no reasons to put in any resignation BECAUSE I HAVE HEARD NO NEWS FROM THEM!

The wait is seriously killing me.

I have no mood to work. I have no desire to comply with my Senior's wishes. I wish I can ask them to go to hell.

Gah.

Kill me kill me kill me.

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OK DONT KILL ME! I GOT INNNNN I GOT INNNN

I'm so happy beyond my wildest dreams... I finally got to do what I really want to do for so long! But of course, you all still have to hear me bitch about work.. just that in a different country... *winks*

No matter how hard it takes...

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I had just submitted my resignation letter, so my final date will be 8 May 2006 (pending confirmation from HR).

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Certain individuals in the office are expecting me to leave.

They say it is the way I carry myself recently. Commented that I have become very flippant about work recently. I commented that, I have become very discouraged by the amount of administrative work given to me. It gives less value to the actual work to be done. The amount of admin work is enormous. Bloody hell before you even start to do an engagement, you are already discouraged by it. The meaning of work is lost.

Anyway, I digress.

The reason being why certain individuals speculate is because I forgot to follow up on a certain engagement's status (because because I was so tied down with administrative work... naturally). Therefore gotten the client so enraged out of his pompous ass. Who does he think he is? So bloody important? "It is not acceptable to delay the refund that long" so he says. I mean what the f*ck can we, the middle agents do? If the government authority DOES NOT have the funds to refund your damn money back, all we can do is to constantly request for it. It is not our problem if the country is lacking of money.

By the way, the pompous ass is a foreigner.... he must not have known how bloody inefficient we are. Stuck up ass. Yeah lah I know your country is way much more sophisticated. IDIOT.

Anyway, just because of this reason of .I.Forgot. I am being now the number one suspect of people to resign soon.

Damn office gossips!

I submitted, travelled, met and discussed.

A week full of hope, worries and anticipation (constipation more is like it), and still playing the waiting game.

Whatever it is, I accept any decsion.

Just give me an answer dammnit!

I cannot tell who I really am for fear of hurting the past.

My dreams began when my past was shattered. All it took was fate, and a little bit of luck.

It all began with a chance. An odd meeting between two individuals who were connected by a common friend. With time, feelings blossomed, and no matter how much I tried to contain myself. I kept telling my inner self, you are attached. No matter what, you are attached and you are not supposed to have feelings for another.

But I did.

No matter how much I tried avoiding, I could not stop thinking of the possibilties of a future. I could not stop to talking him. Most importantly, I could not stop missing him.

It is important to note that; one; I sincerely did try to get over my feelings. Could it be just a passing phase? Could it be just because I was bored with my current because we have been together for so long? So I decided to wait it out. I hoped it will pass. and two; I was totally honest and faithful. I never did cheat on either party. I was just confused. I rode out the wave of confusion with an armful of lovely friends, whom, guiltlessly guided me to the "supposed right path".

Yet I went astray.

It came to a standpoint where I was with him, but I wished I was with the other. Even then, I never wanted to acknowledge that. Because at that point, it seemed that my current relationship (at that point of time) should be 'the one'. It all makes sense at that time. 6 years of courtship, the next step is ready and waiting to be gotten and done over with.

Except that, that didn't exactly happen.

I knew he could give me the house, the ring, the works... but it didnt seem right. Not even after 6 years of courtship. I am not going to dwell on what were the shortcomings, but the reason was as simple as the need to feel emotionally secure and safe, and no matter what happens, I will have full support.

In the end, I left because I made the decision to be happy. It is just as simple as that.

Lets just say, I'm not used to the layout of www.myblog.com.

After an unsuccessful start, I am here again.

This is where my dreams take flight.... albeit a few minor problems...